My Moon

Since this is my journey of living in the now, and letting go of my past...I thought I would share with you what amazing book I've been reading. It's titled "The Power of Now". I have a lot to learn in regards to living in TODAY. I've heard all the slogans:

• one day at a time
• today is the first day of the rest of your life
• today is all that matters
• life is too short
• today is a gift, that's why it's called the present

And I'm sure there are many more. I even think on my profile, I have it written "today is all that matters". It's true, today IS all that matters. It has been one hell of a ride to let go of my yesterdays. I've got 20 years of yesterdays that I don't really want to give up. So the question comes down to: Do I want to give up the 20 years of yesterdays, or do I want to be happy?

I want to be happy.

Which is why I'm reading this book. I read something that was so profound for me. Perhaps not for you. But this is MY journey. The book, naturally, was talking about living in the NOW. And it said:

Nothing ever happened in the past; it happened in the Now. Nothing will ever happen in the future; it will happen in the Now. What you think of as the past is a memory trace, stored in the mind, of a former Now. When you remember the past, you reactivate a memory trace--and you do so now. The future is an imagined Now, a projection of the mind. Past and future obviously have no reality of
their own. (And here comes the profound part for me) Just as the moon as no light of its own, but can only reflect the light of the sun, so are past and future only pale reflections of the light, power, and reality of the eternal present. Their reality is "borrowed" from the Now.

When I look at the moon, I am reminded that my past is only kept alive by my energy of my present. Today is June 5th, 2008. Not April 30th, 1988. The moon has no light of its own. My past has no energy on its own. This book says something about non-forgiveness implies a heavy burden of psychological time. Psychological time meaning time in my HEAD. And I had to close the book and think about that sentence. Non-forgiveness. I think I have forgiven him, the husband that didn't want me anymore. So the real question is: if I have forgiven him, why am I holding on to a past that no longer serves me....

"Even when the sky is heavily overcast, the sun hasn't disappeared. It's still there on the other side of the clouds." --Eckhart Tolle

Yes...Life is good.